
nov-17
So I keep thinking about participation in society... I remember Janwillen van de Wetering in one of his novels referring to "becoming part of an unacceptable situation" -- making yourself blameworthy... I recognize this as an unacceptable situation and I refuse to take part in what I find is unacceptable about it... I must make my immediate surroundings appealing to myself ... because nothing of society left is wholesome to me and the only part of life desirable to me is the part I refuse to participate in.... my life will ascend from the life of an animal to the life of an intelligent, reasoning being -=> God willing <=- it must, I refuse to be the servant of those drives, those fears, those desires FREEDOM i must grant myself freedom a thing none else can grant and none can deny me FREE